So, after my first IVF cycle failed, I had a revelation: I DON'T NEED A BABY TO MAKE ME HAPPY! It will, of course, add to my happiness when it happens. I realized that the more time I waste "waiting" for the next IVF cycle to happen, waiting for follicles to grow, waiting for results, waiting for egg retrieval, waiting for egg transfer, waiting to see if it worked . . . the more I let my life pass me by without truly living it! So, I am going to appreciate the time Chris and I have together, without children, because once we DO have kids our world will never be the same!
So, to commemorate this revelation, I planned a "We don't need no stinkin' babies party". I told everyone to bring a bottle of wine and/or a hunk of cheese. Katie was so thoughtful and brought some sushi, because, as she pointed out, I should do/eat all the things I wouldn't be able to if I were pregnant! The spread was comprised mainly of tids and bits from Trader Joe's (I didn't feel like doing my normal baking/cooking after a long work week). We put "flags" on the table so people could label their cheese. I got a few crappy pictures of the table before anyone got there (our cheeses were from our CSA):
Two of my biggest supports (fuzzy Chris and posing Katie):
We had such an awesome time! It was definitely our biggest turn out for a party, and everyone who came seemed to get along so well. Of course, I forgot to take pictures throughout the party, but Chris remembered toward the end and got these action shots:
We were playing this game called "Quelf" which can be quite hilarious, especially in a large group of people who are all drinking/drunk who don't know each other all that well:
I also made a playlist for the night of songs that make me happy. They may not all be about happy subjects, but they are songs that remind me of good times:
1. Accentuate the Positive . . . . Duke Ellington
2. Free Me . . . Joss Stone
3. Careless Whisper . . . Wham!
4. There's Always Someone Cooler Than You . . . Ben Folds
5. How It Should Be . . . Ben Kweller
6. Drink Me Away . . . Ben Kweller
7. Nugget . . . Cake
8. 1234 . . . Feist
9. Waltz (Better Than Fine) . . . Fiona Apple
10. Cruisin' . . . Gwyneth Paltrow and Huey Lewis
11. Louie . . . Ida Maria
12. At Least I Tried . . . Mates of State
13. Special . . . Mew
14. Billie Jean . . . Michael Jackson
15. Aeroplane Over The Sea . . . Neutral Milk Hotel
16. A Million Ways . . . OK Go
17. Brand New Colony . . . The Postal Service
18. On The Radio . . . Regina Spektor
19. Folding Chair . . . Regina Spektor
20. Circles . . . Soul Coughing
21. Shine A Light . . . Wolf Parade
22. Electric Feel . . . MGMT
23. In Step . . . Girl Talk
24. Shove It . . . Santogold
25. SheWolf . . . Shakira
Go get you some (not babies, music!)!
thanks for the comment. I have heard the same, I was so confused. BTW, I love your party idea. I have got to find one of those parties myself! It's hard to live in the moment and be happy when you have a desire that lies beneath, you know. I love my life with J now, but there's this nagging desire that leaves me in constant pursuit! It's draining and irritating and downright crappy feeling. What drives us to pursue something like parent hood when we are happy now? You know? We have never had kids, we don't know we will like it, we hear it's great, but what if this is the happiest we'll ever be. I dunno. I'm just typing some random thoughts. It's all so much.
ReplyDeleteWhat, no Lady GaGa? just kidding.
ReplyDeleteHear, hear to enjoying the moment!
Thanks, Linda! It's hard to enjoy the moment all the time, because some moments are obviously more enjoyable than others, but I'm working on it! Yeah, um, no Lady GaGa . . . I guess I haven't quite jumped on that bandwagon. Although, I must say, her songs do get in my head and make me want to dance!
ReplyDeleteMelissa!!!!! Just stopping by to let you know I am thinking of you chicky! Hope you are doing well!
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